So I’m sure you’ve noticed I’ve been a little MIA lately. Well there’s good reason behind that.
One I’ve been pretty busy with work. Paperwork galore! And I’ve been working myself crazy getting some items finished up for my first craft show this weekend! I won’t lie, I’m super nervous and unsure if I’ll actually even make back what I paid for my spot, but I’m also excited and anxious. I’ve also been busy with the boys and their everlasting amounts of energy. But to top it off, I’ve been a bit “sick”.
I say that in quotes because actually there is no answer yet as to why or what happened. But I’ll explain to the best of my knowledge.
Saturday evening Ryan and I went to dinner with some friends. After, we decided to stop by their place and hang out for a bit. We had a few beers and went home. We were getting ready for bed and I told Ryan I wasn’t feeling well. That’s the last of my memory for a good 6 hours or so. From what I was told I threw up and went into seizure mode and locked my entire body up. I don’t remember anything. But I remember lots. That doesn’t make sense to you and it doesn’t even make sense to me. But what I remember doesn’t feel or seem real to me. I don’t remember anything particularly, just things I “saw”. Ryan called the ambulance as soon as he realized it wasn’t just having drank a few too many. He got my mom and together they stayed with me until the paramedics arrived. At some point I was taken to the hospital and a battery of tests were done. I cameto between roughly 5-5:30am and didn’t have a clue where I was or how I even got there. It’s still all surreal and puts a strange feeling over me, but it happened. And ever since then I’ve been extra anxious, tired, scared, and confused.
I want answers and we still don’t have them. I want to know why what happened happened and what can be done to prevent it from happening again. I’ve always been fairly healthy. Never had surgery for anything other than the typical tonsils and adenoids. Even birthing my boys went pretty darn smooth. So for something like this to have taken place, it’s got me frightened and on edge.
But I’m taking everyday as best as I can. I’m looking at my boys and thanking God that He wasn’t ready for me yet and I can continue to go through life with my boys and my husband. I’m realizing more and more what’s really important in life and what’s not. I have my family, my boys, my husband. A job, my “business” and now all of you. I am pretty darn happy with that!